Weekends totally sucks.
It's when all work related correspondence comes to a stand-still and I'm left wondering what to expect in the coming week. I don't like this feeling of waiting for answers and I totally hate the feeling of waiting for a confirmation. No confirmation = no potential profit =( but then again, no payment = no confirmed profit =(
The previous issue is coming to a conclusion soon and I'm praying for the best. It's gonna be a big big deciding factor for my schedule and development for the next few months and maybe even years. Anticipation~ ;)
A new opportunity showed up yesterday! I sure hope it'll go through too. Oh god, I love dealing with big businesses, give me more!!!
Posted at » 3:21 AM
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Recently I realized..I seem to have changed quite a lot since I stopped being a student. Feeling the effects of getting old, the burden of responsibility, the sad thought that I can never turn back and be that gullible Shana who believes in everything and everyone anymore. Life just seems so much happier and carefree last time =(
It hasn't been easy without the support of my family. Though my friends are encouraging, it doesn't help when you have people constantly around you picking on your faults, on your unemployment and your inability to give them money for holidays. For the Xth time, I'm self-employed, trying to carve my own career path and I would appreciate some encouragement from the people I love most!
March is approaching..the first 2 months of 2009 had been a whirlwind. I received lots of business proposals, none of which got through yet. Waiting is such a torture. I got an offer of a million dollar deal and (I think) lost it. Maybe it's an attempt at scamming me all along. Afterall, it's too good to be true. Goodbye to those dreams of a better life though. Booo~
I discovered spiritual healing. It's so comforting to be at peace with myself, to have trust and faith and learn how to block out negative energies. I tried meditation. It was a good experience and all my troubles just seemed to float out the window. It made me more focused and alert in making decisions. But I got spooked out by certain things and I guess I shouldn't dabble in it so often =x There goes my fantasy of being psychic and charging $50/hr for a reading..haha~
It's amazing how powerful the mind is in affecting your thoughts and actions thus producing different results. So cheem, even I can't understand myself =x
Oh right! To share some happy stuff, I bought 2 books today! You're probably gonna "zzz" coz they're business books but 1 is by my idol, Donald Trump! Another's by Adam Khoo, apparently my sister's idol..hahaha~
Constantly on the search for knowledge but prefers doing them at my own pace and interest rather than attending boring lessons. Be honst, how many of you actually remembers what is taught in school? I for one can't even remember what are the classes I attended in poly but with books I pick up, I try to apply the knowledge and though application in real life situations, the knowledge stays with me for life =)
Hence, stop asking me to study. If I find the need to, I will. But at present, I simply do not see the point of wasting money and time just to get a degree and make myself more presentable. Sometimes it's not about the knowledge you pick up in school but the life lessons you learnt. These are stuff the nerds in school and the people who don't dare to try don't know about ^^
Sigh~ why do I feel that the above is so cheem and unlike me? Must be getting old =(
Posted at » 2:44 AM
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Long time since I blog! Super no mood for it coz stupid laptop is dead and not going to be revived anytime soon. Gosh I'm hungry, shall go grab some supper once I finish this.
Super rich Siew Yen treated me and Xiaohan to Sentosa for the flower thingy on the 4th day of CNY!! Free admission and lunch! Woohooo~!
Some random pics..
Picnic at the Southern most point of SEA! Someone actually brought Japanese fans lor~
Funny uncle in the background. =x
Try to spot me! I'm trying to...
take this pic! hahaha~
Teletubby Merlion trying to eat Tubby Crane! =x
Every parent's wish for sure...
da he zao~!!
Random pics from other occasions..
Gathering at Ling's house before she has to go back USA again. This time all of us managed to be present!
Sashimi feast with Siew Yen! We had 9 plates of sashimi..wahahaha~
Went CNY shopping with parents and bought this at the market. Strawberries from Korea! Pretty and delicious~
Golden cow given by Tiger Beer! Super cute, it replaced the jade cow my parents bought last year in our supposedly fa cai wei
Maomao trying to get to the goodies inside the angpow I gave her
Cutie baby~ we're teaching her how to stand and walk now ^^
Posted at » 3:55 AM
Monday, January 05, 2009
5th day into the year 2009..how did you welcome your new year? For me, instead of spending my new year laughing at other people's photos (u know who u are =p), I spent it working. Been preparing a catalogue and it seriously kills. But its something to be happy about coz work brings moolah. In my case its more like an investment though, no moolahs till my work is accepted or everything is just a waste of effort =(
Supposed to spend my new year's eve having dinner with some old friends but it was cancelled last min due to my backing out. My apologies babes! >.<
Looking back into the year 2008..I had met a couple of mean people and sad to say, I am still not that brave at dealing with them. So, for 2009, I SHALL BE A MEAN GIRL!!! *I'm gonna be a bad girl~ I'm gonna be a bad girl~* Must paste a super big note somewhere that I always look at to remind myself never ever to be softhearted again. Thank you friends for all your advices and support and tolerating my rantings. Big big kiss to you all! <3
Year 2009, I'm gonna appreciate my parents more. Though I complained they're too naggy and meddlesome, I'm really touched that after they had scolded enough, they actually listened to me and offered me advices. So, I shall learn to be more tolerating towards them.
Dad is always asking me if I can manage and that I should get a job if I can't. Understand that our expenses are going up and it's hard on him to manage on his own thus he appreciates all the help we can offer. Am already paying the internet bills, and I gotta pay back his CPF but hopefully soon I will be able to chip in a bit for the electrical bills as well. This is what I had always wanted to do and I won't give up so easily so nope, not getting a job anytime soon but I'm gonna work doubly hard and look for more opportunites to expand and bring in the moolahs and hopefully give them a more comfortable life =D
May 2009 be a fantastic year of opportunities!
Posted at » 3:56 AM
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Urgh~ meddle meddle meddle. When will my mum stop meddling in my stuff? She k-po my orders, k-po my income, k-po everything! I know she cares that's y she's doing it but I simply hate people poking their noses into everything I do. If I want to tell you, I will.
True, I'm soft-hearted and I always trust people too easily. I'm fully aware of that and don't need you to remind me that and nag over and over again. I have my own way of dealing with it and only turn nasty when need be. I don't need you asking me everyday "Is the money in? Don't you check?". The truth is, I do check but I always lie that I didn't coz then you'll start nagging why I hadn't been rushing for payment. But if I lie, I get accused for being unconcerned and lazy. I don't find the need to report everything to you. I don't need you to remind me of how I had been cheated in the past as I don't see them as failures but lessons I've learnt which betters me in dealing with any further such situations should they arise.
They don't really support me do they? All they are concerned about is money money money. Do you have money? Don't expect me to give you when you're broke. WTH? Even if I'm broke and dying from hunger, I would NEVER ever take your money. And then they'll start making sarcastic remarks like "your biz is so small and pathetic, get a job!""look at others, they're earning like there's no tomorrow, why can't you be the same?""how can u succeed if you're so lazy?".
I didn't put big money into this biz coz I can't afford to, thus I don't expect immediate big returns like others. I'm working hard towards my goal of having a showroom and doing some major import/export and wholesaling. But can they see that? No. All they see is me sitting infront of my comp the whole day, watching shows. Which I must admit is partly true coz I don't want them looking at what I'm doing and then start k-poing again so I only work at night when all had gone to sleep.
So irritating, all I want is some privacy. Why can't I have it! No room to call my own, no study room to hide in. All I have is a stupid corner in the living room, fully exposed.
URGH~ I HATE THIS!!!!
Posted at » 2:33 PM
Monday, December 22, 2008
Had fun baking today with Xiaohan and Siew Yen! Just bought an oven yesterday (finally!) and can't wait to try it out so cooking mama Siew Yen came over to bake her butter cookies. I finally got to try my hands at macarons too but it was a semi-failure. Taste wise still ok, looks-wise? Totally cmi =x
Introducing cooking mama's butter cookie man!
Beautifully decorated by the 3 of us. Actually most are done by Siew Yen and Xiaohan, I got lazy after doing the most left dude. They say he looked like a chicken! >.<
After baking..the man seemed to have miraculously gained 80 pounds =x
And..let me introduce u all to my other proud creation, Vampyman!
Very shuai hor?
Picnic at the Southern most point of SEA! Someone actually brought Japanese fans lor~
Funny uncle in the background. =x
Try to spot me! I'm trying to...
take this pic! hahaha~
Teletubby Merlion trying to eat Tubby Crane! =x
Every parent's wish for sure...
da he zao~!!
Gathering at Ling's house before she has to go back USA again. This time all of us managed to be present!
Sashimi feast with Siew Yen! We had 9 plates of sashimi..wahahaha~
Went CNY shopping with parents and bought this at the market. Strawberries from Korea! Pretty and delicious~
Golden cow given by Tiger Beer! Super cute, it replaced the jade cow my parents bought last year in our supposedly fa cai wei
Maomao trying to get to the goodies inside the angpow I gave her
Cutie baby~ we're teaching her how to stand and walk now ^^